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Donuts, Dresses, and Doing the Damn Thing

Today was the first full day with my wife and son away at camp. Just me and the girls at home. We got up early and went to get donuts and watch the sunrise. It’s something I didn’t do until my 30s, and I want to make sure they don’t miss those little joys. It was sweet. Simple. Worth it. After that, we chilled for a bit, then I dropped them off at my in-laws around 9am. The plan was to spend the whole day as Michelle—lean into a full-on housewife fantasy and surprise my wife by deep-cleaning the house while she’s gone. And I mean... I sort of did that. But also? I went out as Michelle. Like, OUT out. Not just a walk around the block. Like, errands. In public. Fully dressed. I was terrified . Like full-body shaking, heart-pounding nervous. I’ll have a full post about it on the main blog tomorrow if you're curious, but short version? I chickened out on two restaurants, managed to get groceries, chickened out again, and finally got lunch at a gas station . Yeah. Big trans gi...
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Burnout, Brainstorms & Board Games: My Chaotic Productivity Day

So today was... a lot. I finally sat down to plan content for my gaming channel—something I’ve been meaning to do for weeks . I got sucked into YouTube search, digging through keywords and stats like a little data goblin. Honestly? I probably spent way too much time on it. And what did I end up deciding? Four videos that are basically just slight variations of each other. Groundbreaking. I did the same thing for my main channel, and it kind of felt like I was just spinning in circles. Four freaking hours just to plan one month of content. Like girl, no. That should’ve been an hour max. Make something , get it going, tweak it next month. Perfection can wait. Small win though—I did a quick dive into short story structure. Just enough to get the basics and bounce. So yay, progress? Also narrowed down the characters I want to draw to a list of twelve. That sounds productive, right? Except I spent half the time second-guessing everything because I low-key want to draw all of them. Cla...
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I Didn’t Finish My List… But I Got a Homemade Pizza

Trying (again) to get everything in my life back on track. I woke up around 4:30am from a nightmare, and honestly? I got very little done at work. My brain just wasn’t in it. Instead, I ended up doing a bunch of planning—mapping out what I want to tackle while my wife and son are away on their camping trip next week. I laid out a new gym routine (thanks to all that blog research), picked out the game dev and programming books I want to read, and figured out meals to cook with each of the kids. Still, there’s that voice in the back of my head whispering I didn’t do enough . I didn’t finish my to-do list. I didn’t journal. (Technically doing this the day after.) I was so wiped by the end of the night I just crashed after getting the kids settled. But I’m trying to be kind to myself. I did show up. I did do something. That has to count for something. Small win though: we just wrapped up the end of the school year, and when I got home last night, the kids had made a homemade pizza an...
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