Half-Written Pages

So today was... a lot. I finally sat down to plan content for my gaming channel—something I’ve been meaning to do for weeks . I got sucked into YouTube search, digging through keywords and stats like a little data goblin. Honestly? I probably spent way too much time on it. And what did I end up deciding? Four videos that are basically just slight variations of each other. Groundbreaking. I did the same thing for my main channel, and it kind of felt like I was just spinning in circles. Four freaking hours just to plan one month of content. Like girl, no. That should’ve been an hour max. Make something , get it going, tweak it next month. Perfection can wait. Small win though—I did a quick dive into short story structure. Just enough to get the basics and bounce. So yay, progress? Also narrowed down the characters I want to draw to a list of twelve. That sounds productive, right? Except I spent half the time second-guessing everything because I low-key want to draw all of them. Cla...

Trying (again) to get everything in my life back on track. I woke up around 4:30am from a nightmare, and honestly? I got very little done at work. My brain just wasn’t in it. Instead, I ended up doing a bunch of planning—mapping out what I want to tackle while my wife and son are away on their camping trip next week. I laid out a new gym routine (thanks to all that blog research), picked out the game dev and programming books I want to read, and figured out meals to cook with each of the kids. Still, there’s that voice in the back of my head whispering I didn’t do enough . I didn’t finish my to-do list. I didn’t journal. (Technically doing this the day after.) I was so wiped by the end of the night I just crashed after getting the kids settled. But I’m trying to be kind to myself. I did show up. I did do something. That has to count for something. Small win though: we just wrapped up the end of the school year, and when I got home last night, the kids had made a homemade pizza an...